Life is hard. We will all go through things that test our trust in God, and it’s uncomfortable. We face trials, difficulties, sickness, loss, and heartache – and in those times it often feels like there’s no way out, no light at the end of the tunnel.

Trusting God is believing and knowing he is good, that he loves you, and that he has the power and desire to help you. Hebrews 11:1 says, “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” We believe in God, and it seems like the simplest idea, but from that moment, we can learn to trust, which is one of the most crucial building blocks and is absolutely fundamental for any healthy, close relationship.

For years I struggled with tumours in my body – a horrible and dark season that felt never-ending. During this time, I would seek any opportunity to be prayed for, and I was certain God was going to heal me. Prayer after prayer was lifted on my behalf, and nothing happened. Nothing physical at least. People started telling me I needed more faith, or needed to believe more, and after a while, I actually started to believe them. I started believing I was bad, that it was my fault I was sick and wasn’t doing enough to earn God’s favour or blessing. So, I straightened up and was determined to become a “good Christian.” I prayed more, read more, devoted myself more, and volunteered more – desperate to earn God’s love.

As if my goodness could ever outweigh his.

On one of my darkest days, I remember sitting on an old, dark brown picnic table by a pond full of ducks. The sun was shining, and the air smelled like freshly cut grass. I sat there in tears feeling empty and exhausted. I had stopped trusting God for healing or believing that he had anything good for me. I randomly opened my Bible on that table, and Psalm 27 flew off the page at me. David openly portrays his deep desperation for God, and his desire to have God always close.

In this Psalm, David declares God’s goodness, acknowledges all the horrible situations that try to deter him from God, God’s faithfulness, and at the end when he’s recognizing his enemies have once again surrounded him, he says:

“Yet I totally trust you to rescue me one more time, so that I can see once again how good you are while I’m still alive! Here’s what I’ve learned through it all: Don’t give up, don’t be impatient, be entwined as one with the Lord. Be brave and courageous, and never lose hope. Yes, keep on waiting – for he will never disappoint you!” – Psalm 27: 13-14 TPT

The final thought of this beautiful Psalm is a statement of faith. David had the assurance that God was worth waiting for, and he had full confidence and trust in the goodness of God. This truth changed me that day. Just when I had given up, God reminded me he will never disappoint me! I can trust him to rescue me. Do NOT give up! I had to trust and believe I would see his goodness, that he would rescue me from the pit of striving and self-reliance I had dug, and whatever the outcome of my situation, healing or not, he still loves me.

Jesus says in John 15:5, “For apart from me you can do nothing.” I grew up in a household that wasn’t big on trusting others. We trusted and relied on ourselves or family, but no one else. It’s a harsh reality when you learn that humans are, indeed, human, and therefore have a tendency to let you down. But God, on the other hand, can be trusted wholeheartedly. He will never let us down.

I recently had the opportunity to have a conversation with a group of believers who were 40+ years older than me. We talked about their prayer lives, how they navigate heartache or hopelessness, stories about revival breaking out in my city 60 years ago and heard of the deep love and appreciation they have for the Lord. It was the most inspiring day! One of the most memorable answers I received was when I asked what their secret was to staying devoted to God and loving him for as long as they have. One man got teary-eyed and said he is absolutely convinced of the goodness of God and is grateful for how well God has taken care of him. I was in tears by the end of his story, and I said, “Wow, I hope one day I have faith like that!” He looked sweetly into my eyes and said, “Oh dear, all you need to do is believe in him and whole-heartedly trust him. Then the unwavering faith will come.”

So, like David, I am learning to say, “God, I totally trust you.”

 “I would have lost heart, unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.” – Psalm 27:13 NKJV

Hold fast to faith my friends. And remember, no matter the circumstance you can trust him. Your God has you, and he holds you secure.